Noticed someone and spent hours pondering over a question- does our mind play games to deceive us, or do we play games to deceive our mind?
He was always aloof, full of questions, searching for something. He had really strong likes and dislikes. Valued certain things, considered some completely useless. Suddenly I see him trying to change himself, doing things that are unlike him. Why, I wondered???!!!
A closer look revealed a complete different picture. I see him snapping all ties- ties which he now proclaims were unimportant. I try to fit the pieces of this puzzle together. If I know him even a little bit, I would say that if this breaking of bonds had no meaning, he would have never done this. The people involved might be insignificant, but the action does have a meaning.
Is he planning to end his search and involve himself in the more mundane events, or was he so haunted by his own questions that he is trying to shut them up, building a façade which appears more “normal”? What is he doing, trying to tell his mind that although he has easily snapped so many ties, he is not getting inside any closure; he is in fact now doing things which all others around him love doing.
Would his mind be so easily deceived? Does he realize that the outer shell that he has built still has some gaps from where his true self tries to peep out? Does he realize that the shell is just a make-believe cover to the complex being that is getting more complicated day-by-day? It will break some day and the person emerging would be even more difficult to handle than the one who exists today. Why is he running away from the reality?
But there is something else that worries me more. What if the shell never breaks? What if the façade becomes a fact? What if he loses himself trying to be one of the other so-called normal persons? I hope he doesn’t.
3 comments:
it might just be a way to associate with people around him. Talking about reality .. do people really are what they look .. almost everyone is what is expected of them.
I think thats how things work in this world. Its a society we live in and not our own individual world. Ofcourse there is a fine balance in maintaining that individuality even being a part of people around you.
can relate to the write up. I know a person in such a situation. and now that things have changed for him, around him and within him he is infact changing... for good or for bad, let the time decide!
but i DO agree with you, often actions do have peculiar meanings (even if people involved are "significant")... and yet people around might just see what they want to see, have interpretations of their own, of the events and happenings but what is heartening to see is that he is infact doing well in "snapping the ties & breaking the bonds", ties which might even be important; who knows! He might not always be happy or proud about it always but he is definitely positive about the things that are coming up.
Facade to one might be the biggest fact for the other. If i were to trust this friend of mine, deception is infact an art which not all can master but for those who do, those who can deceive their own minds, life can be good at times.
what say!
mirror!
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